My Story

I’m a 37yr old Canadian with Lebanese/Syrian parents, I was born-and-raised in Canada’s capital of Ottawa.

My whole life I’ve felt like I was meant to do something great and help a lot of people but I didn’t know what it was.

When I was young, i was a dreamer, hopeless romantic, creative with a huge heart and filled with passion. I wanted to help everyone and knew exactly who I was. I believed in helping people, in loving people unconditionally, and doing the right thing always (especially when nobody’s looking). I wanted to change the world and had big dreams, filled with limitless potential and eternal optimism that I would do it.

Then, as life happened, I lost that. I became cold, insecure, indecisive and ungrateful. I lost my sense of hope, passion, optimism…I just felt numb.

Why did this happen? I fell too hard, one too many times, for girls that didn’t feel the same way back. And at a certain point, I didn’t want to get hurt anymore so I shut my heart off. I put a wall in front of it and refused to get hurt again. Unfortunately, that wall was so strong that it also blocked out everything else.

I never felt too happy or too sad, I just felt neutral all the time. I didn’t know how to have fun anymore, and I couldn’t connect with people.

Everything just felt hard and misaligned. I went to university for engineering and hated every minute of my 4 years there, but I thought that was normal. I started working and hated every minute of my 10 years working. But I carried on, no pain no gain right?

So I turned to unhealthy things to make myself feel better: going out, drinking, girls, etc. It did make me feel better, but only in the moment. And those moments were fleeting and made me feel even more empty.

I eventually did date girls who loved me, but I never felt deeply for them like I had in the past.

It’s like my head completely took over and left my heart behind. I didn’t know how to feel anymore.

I didn’t trust myself, so I couldn’t make decisions…every time I tried, I was filled with anxiety about making the “wrong” choice.

Not only did this affect me deeply, but it affected every part of my life: career, family, friends, and relationships.

And the whole time I thought it was because of external factors (I was in the wrong job, the wrong program, the wrong girl, etc). So I started looking for the right ones, and I never found them…

In my 20s I started dreaming of traveling the world and starting my own business…I wanted to be a digital nomad (after reading the 4 Hour Workweek). Who wouldn’t love that kind of life? Working from a beach, on your laptop, on your own time with unlimited freedom. Seeing new cities whenever you wanted, meeting new people, discovering new things about yourself. So when I was 30, I finally got the courage to do it so I quit my job and left my hometown to travel the world as a digital nomad.

Surely this was the answer, I was living the dream! I was travelling the world, working as a digital nomad and doing what I dreamed of…but there was only one problem.

I still felt numb. I felt disconnected. I thought I felt disconnected from the world, but in reality I was disconnected from myself.

How is that even possible??? “No matter where you go, there you are”

I realized I had built a life based on my false values (values I thought were important to me, but turns out they’re not)

Then I discovered my true values and things started to turn around.

So i went on a journey to feel alive again, to feel connected, to feel LOVE again. I realized I had been living a life that’s so inauthentic to who I truly am, to who I was as a kid but I had no idea. I was pursuing these things that I thought would make me happy but they didn’t. They just made me feel even more empty. I was pursuing things I THOUGHT I wanted but it wasn’t even my voice who told me I wanted them, it was outside voices that I mistook for my own…I was so disconnected from myself, that I didn’t even know the difference. No wonder I couldn’t trust myself to make a decision, every decision I made had lead me astray because I was making decisions using other people’s opinions of what was right for me!

And the truth is, nobody knows what’s right for you except for…you.

No coach, guru, or spiritual leader has that answer for you…only you do. And you need to trust yourself + learn how to connect with your true self in order to start piecing the answers together.

If you can relate to this, then I would love to meet and help you. I don’t have the answers for you, only you have them deep inside you, but I can help you dig them out. And meet some awesome people just like you, who wanna change the world, along the way.

I’ve spent countless years and money on this journey for myself, so if I can accelerate that process for you it would be my honour.

You know deep down you were put on this planet to make a difference, and the only way you can achieve that potential is to reconnect with yourself, with others, feel ALIVE again and have that sense of LOVE + PASSION running through your veins.

Once you rediscover that, then you’ll become a beacon of light for the whole world to see.